Its been a while..

It has been a while i have not posted on the link here. Common what do you expect me. Am no Paulo Coelho.This is not my earning..though my desire , no not desire need to write. Well the times were not too busy that i could not write..ohh cut the crap. I am very bad at admitting mistakes :)

So i was not short of time, i was neither involved in too much studies..the truth is that..well lets skip it. I am not too bold as you can see i can not write i have fallen in love. Well done with it lets write again.

You know what is the basic problem with the person who can lie at will and chose not to lie ever. Well don't guess i am not gonna answer that..i myself don't know. Now this is coming out to be a very bad article i know. I have strong reasons to support my point that this is going to end very badly and i am sure you will be wasting your time reading this post.

Reason No 1 :- I have not decided yet what am i going to write
Reason No 2 :- There is no occassion to inspire me
Reason No 3 :- I have nothing to boast about as well

So you have decided you are gonna waste your time. God help you guys.(I warned you..don't curse me later..i am damn serious).

So having done with it this ain't going to be a very helpful read is that i am under so much confusion(for the 3rd time in a row in a short span of my life). And i have many reasons to tell(apart from the above 3).

See the point is next six months are my final 6 months(5 may be) at Nangal Dam(yes i am an Engineer). And my previous no to Accenture,HCL,TCS are compelling me to think what am i going to do with my life. Common who says no to these elite companies. Obviously a fanatic like me would be the most viable answer. Byt here i am folowing my dreams since class 4 endlessly.

The story of Accenture ranges from me saying no in a very awkward manner and TCS joining is due tommorrow and since i am sure as i won't be able to reach Mumbai in time to join*(as if i wanted) i am writing this completely sured. And let us not talk about HCL, yes that would be very nice.

So, i am not joining the comfortable jobs as my most of the friends who have passed out with me are. So, what am i doing for God's sake. Well i am doing my PG(traing) and trying my level best in my field. Yes, i am not joining TCS as i am sure i am going to be placed from here. But since it is not possible to know future i have been a bit under illusion of say uncertainity. But hey they say Fools and fanatics are always certain of themselves, but wiser people are full of doubts. (Well at least this proves me for the 1st time i am not a fool, but it cannot rule out that i am not a fanatic).

I told you this piece of shit you are reading is a waste of time(nor is being an edited post).

Since you have got this far..you damn are stubborn, deeply interested in me( i would never have gone past this line now).

Damn you really are having a crush on me. So, let me begin.

I have one problem i can never see my closed ones in pain. And what if your very close ones cry infront of you. Well that is what makes me more uncertain.

You know the worst feeling in this world for me (every one has different thresholds) is the feeling when you can not do anything..because you just can not(now as if you have understood). The worst feeling is that you are so helpless that you can't help the one you adore so much..you love so much..because you can not. I won't be going into details as this is not only about me. I have nothing to hide. My book is an open book. But encrypted. I never give the password to anybody. Sometimes my left half of brain is unaware of right one's act and yes that leads to me(as people say i have very cold heart). Give me a break. Why am i writing i am not even gonna get anything from this. No one is gonna read this(as this shows my weaker side - so why would i let you see).

Eventually i have got not one but two laptops transferred here to India as i last time posted in my previous post i won't be posting as i have got no PC.(now i had plan of writing this atory in differnt article, crap!!)

Meanwhile, everything is fine but so complicated. I don't know why. I have always dreamt of travelling the world alone and living more simply..I don't know what has happpened to that dream.(Now these were Dido's line from the song 'Life for Rent)

I love writing stories and quoting facts..love debating and enjoy winning argument. But i don't know what am i writing today..my confused state of mind.. YOU TELL ME??